Welcome

Welcome to my English ePortfolio. This website showcases my work from this course and reflects my growth as a reader, writer, and scholar throughout the semester.

About the Author

My name is Yehia Abouelnasr, and I am a 16-year-old college student studying computer science. I enjoy playing and creating video games, as well as experimenting with computer hardware and technology. I often like to take apart and test different computer parts to better understand how they work. I immigrated from Egypt 7 years ago, and my experiences have both shaped my interests in technology and motivated me to keep learning and building.

Creative Element #1: Building Computers

The Intersection of Hardware and Identity

Building a computer

This image represents one of my greatest passions: building and understanding technology from the ground up. Just as I carefully select each component, test compatibility, and assemble a functioning system, I've learned to approach writing and English with the same methodical curiosity. Each piece must connect.

Outside the Classroom

My interests include programming, mathematics, and exploring how systems work. These interests shaped how I initially approached reading and writing, often prioritizing efficiency over reflection. I read to extract information, to derive formulas, to frame problems, not to sit with ambiguity or consider multiple perspectives.

As an immigrant, I carry with me the experiences of navigating between two worlds balancing the cultural expectations of my heritage with the demands of my new environment. This duality has shaped my identity in profound ways, teaching me resilience, adaptability, and the importance of perspective. Language has always been a marker of difference for me, something that revealed my background before people even got to know me.

Creative Element #2: The Futuristic City

On the road ahead

Futuristic cityscape

This image has a retro, neon style that connects to my interest in technology and game design. The road leading toward the horizon represents how I am working toward my goals step by step. As a computer science student, I am always moving forward, learning new skills, and improving over time. The mix of old and modern visuals reflects how I combine creativity with technical thinking in my work.

My Work

Best Essay:

The Dark Passenger: Vigilantism and the Morality of Dexter

What makes someone good or evil? For most people, morality seems pretty clear, until a character like Dexter Morgan shows how justice and murder can coincide in one man. The Showtime television series, Dexter, follows Dexter Morgan, a forensic blood spatter analyst for the Miami Metro Police Department who lives a double life as a vigilante serial killer. Haunted by his childhood trauma and guided by his father’s “code” to only target other killers who slipped through the cracks. This framework turned Dexter into a character of both justice and corruption, as he confronts the audience to answer uncomfortable questions about right and wrong. Through Dexter Morgan’s trauma-shaped double life as both a sympathetic killer and a vigilante, the series critiques the flaws of the American legal system by exploring the vague line between a hero and villain, and revealing how society’s belief of morality can severely rig the justice system. From the beginning of the show, Dexter’s complex code is revealed. In the first couple minutes of the Pilot episode, he targets Mike Donovan, a man who murdered choir boys [young children from his church] and forcibly drags him into his organized kill room. Dexter orders Donovan to look at the crime scene, and when Donovan hesitates, Dexter is frustrated and threatens him to look. As Donovan breaks down, crying and begging for forgiveness, Dexter contracts his own standards by stating that he could “never ever” harm children. He then tranquilizes Donovan, wraps him up in plastic, takes blood samples, and begins the killing process, all while narrating the man’s horrifying fate as he works (Dexter, Abouelnasr 2 Season 1, episode 1, 00:01:17 – 00:06:17). This scene reveals the main tension of the series. Dexter is both terrifying and principled, he operates according to a code. His claim about never harming children invokes empathy, showing that even as a serial killer, he has standards and a sense of morality. This restraint additionally reflects his childhood trauma, as he witnessed his mother’s murder, which could explain his sympathy for innocent children. Combining thorough planning, selective violence, and his sympathy for children all show that Dexter is a complex character, which engages the audience in questions about justice and the benefits of vigilantism. In the season 4 finale, Dexter Morgan returns home after confronting the Trinity Killer, Arthur Mitchell, expecting to return with his family. He calls his wife, Rita, and hears a voicemail explaining that she has returned from the airport; she also mentions to Dexter to look at the moon tonight, since he deserves it. When Dexter returns home, he hears a ringing phone and a familiar baby cry in the distance. Rushing upstairs, he finds his infant son, Harrison, crying in a pool of his mother’s blood, with Rita lying motionless nearby in a bathtub of blood. Dexter picks up Harrison and whispers, “Born in blood, both of us”, while realizing the devastating consequences of his secret life (Dexter, Season 4, episode 12, 00:47:12 – 00:50:20). Rita’s death is a critical scene that illustrates the limits of Dexter’s vigilante justice and the failure of the legal system to prevent actual harm. Despite Dexter's careful moral code and efforts to control his environment, Dexter is powerless to stop a murder at his own home, which demonstrates the volatile consequences of living a double life. This scene additionally humanizes Dexter, showing his deep grief and guilt as he blames himself for this catastrophe. Besides, the murder shows the limits of Dexter’s actions and the problem with justice. Dexter, who enforces his own strict code cannot fully ensure safety or fairness. Furthermore, the murder mirrors Dexter’s childhood trauma, as he also witnessed his mother’s murder and was in a pool of his mothers blood, reinforcing how early Abouelnasr 3 experiences can shape one's empathy, fear and moral reasoning. For the audience, the shock and tragedy of Rita’s death makes them question if justice can ever truly be achieved. In the Season 1 finale, Brian Moser, the Ice Truck Killer, lures Dexter to the garage where he held Dexter’s sister, Deborah Morgan, hostage. Brian tries to persuade Dexter that the only way to be free is to kill her, pressing him to abandon his code. Dexter refuses, and Brian resentfully states, “You can’t be a hero and a killer. It doesn’t work that way!” (Dexter, episode 1, episode 12, 00:35:15–00:37:50). This contrast between Dexter’s code and Brian’s arbitrary, senseless violence. While Brian kills solely for amusement, Dexter tries to maintain tight boundaries, refusing to harm innocent people. Brian’s statement additionally emphasizes a main problem of the series. Dexter exists as both a killer and a protector, which complicates the classic hero and villain dichotomy. This moment also reflects Dexter’s childhood trauma, since his experience watching his mother’s murder played a huge role in his empathy and drives his selective standards. For the audience, this confrontation makes them question Dexter's ethics, since a person who commits heinous sins is inadequate for the “hero” title. In season 7 episode 4, after killing Ray Speltzer, Dexter stands before his collection of blood slides, his trophies, representing every life he has taken by the code. He touches them one last time before saying, “Everyone has to move on,” and places the box on Speltzer’s body, and turns on the incinerator. As the fire burns, he whispers “Goodbye friends” (Dexter, Season 7, episode 4, 00:49:30–00:50:20). This scene is a great symbol of Dexter’s internal conflict with morality and his identity. The burning slides display him as trying to escape from his obsessive urges and need for control. Yet the fondness in which he addresses the slides demonstrates his emotional attachment to his sins and his inability to let go of this “dark passenger”. The incinerator is often a symbol of cleansing and recommencement, but instead it reflects Dexter’s effort to erase his guilt. This scene additionally emphasizes that Dexter’s verdict on justice is fundamentally flawed, since morality built on violence, Abouelnasr 4 especially murder can never bring true equality or redemption. For the audience, this scene questions whether moral order can ever emerge from violence, implying that Dexter’s concept of justice was inherently flawed. In Dexter: Resurrection, Dexter finally confronts the truth about his “Dark Passenger”, this inner voice he has blamed for all his urges. On Prater’s boat, he finally declares “ I used to wish that I could be different, normal. A life without my Dark Passenger. But who am I kidding? This is who I am, What I am. I’m Dexter Morgan. I’m exactly who I need to be, exactly who you want me to be” (Dexter: Resurrection, Season 1, Episode 10, 00:44:45–00:45:16). By addressing the audience, Dexter acknowledges that his violent urges were never actually separated from himself. The Dark Passenger, which he previously used as a coping mechanism for his childhood trauma, was an intrinsic part of his identity. Dexter breaking the fourth wall forces the viewers to confront the reality behind his code. His vigilantism was always his choice rather than an uncontrollable, addictive obsession. Symbolically speaking, it breaks the duality he has kept for many years, emphasizing the tension between hero and villain. Additionally, this moment exposes the fundamental flaw in Dexter’s verdict on justice. His code, while organized and selective, cannot ever truly hide the ethical compromises in taking lives. For the audience, this fourth wall confession intensifies the moral ambiguity of all of Dexter’s actions, since it implies that confession was a form of rationalized violence rather than true justice. Some viewers might argue that Dexter Morgan functions as a hero because he thoroughly targets only those who have committed heinous crimes, he follows a moral code made by his father. By selectively killing only other killers, Dexter appears principled, methodical, and maybe even a defender of the innocent, giving the impression that his actions are solely for justice rather than personal satisfaction. For example, his careful preparation, analysis, and ritual procedure to murder his victims indicates control and thought, which Abouelnasr 5 some might see as a sign of virtue rather than vice. However, this is flawed, as the series repeatedly implies that even an ethical killer cannot prevent catastrophes. The devastating consequences of his double life, such as Rita’s death and the disorder of those close to Dexter, all reveal the instability and dangers of vigilantism. Furthermore, Dexter’s rationalizations, like blaming the “Dark Passenger” show that the moral codes can become excusatory. For the audience, these contradictions can reject the notion of a “heroic murderer”, emphasizing that vigilantism, even with rules, cannot achieve true justice. Dexter Morgan’s story challenges the audience to reconsider their belief of morality, justice and identity. Through his vigilantism, childhood trauma, and selective standards to a code, the series constantly blurs the line between hero and villain. In the pilot episode, Dexter refuses to harm children to declare his standards, while also being scrupulous in his killings, which shows the complexity of his character and the flaw of the justice system. The tragedies he faces, most notably Rita’s death, expose the boundaries of his vigilantism and reflect the trauma that has formed his empathy and selective standards. His interactions with characters like the Ice Truck Killer also brings the conflict between controlled violence and chaos. Dexter’s realization of the Dark Passenger as an intrinsic part of himself reveals that his framework has always been a coping mechanism. All in all, these aspects demonstrate that attempts to try to enforce justice unmethodically are unstable and can cause collateral damage. By presenting Dexter as someone who is both sympathetic and horrifying, the series forces viewers to question the assumptions behind justice, morality, and societal belief about ethics. Dexter’s Story is an important reminder that morality is complex, and that well intentioned actions can have devastating consequences.

Discussion Post #1: Film analysis

Dexter (2006 - 2013) is a Television series about Dexter Morgan, a Miami forensic blood splatter analyst who in secret, is also a vigilante serial killer. In the season 4 finale (episode 12), Dexter returns home after killing Arthur Mitchell (The Trinity Killer), only to find out his wife, Rita, murdered in the bathtub, his infant son crying in a puddle of blood. This scene is one of the most shocking and depressing moments in the show. Video of the scene Links to an external site. Details I noticed: The camera begins by showing Dexter entering the house, relieved after killing Arthur, oblivious to what has happened. The sound of the baby crying intensifying as Dexter comes, this attracts the audience into his discovery. The baby on the floor, sitting in a pool of his mothers blood, this exactly mirrors Dexter childhood trauma when he also was sitting in a pool of his mothers blood. Rita's body is shown white and transparent, but contrasts with the bright red blood, which makes the imagery violent and haunting. Rita's body is displayed static, while the baby is fluttering and crying. This Juxtaposes life and death in one shot. Dexter's face which shifts from confusion to horror when he comes to the bathroom, this rare true emotion from Dexter is quite rare as he is depicted as an apathetic character. The music goes quiet after the calamity, leaving the baby crying which heightens the emotional weight. Possible Meanings from the details: 1. The bathtub scene reflects Dexter's childhood trauma, which could suggest that the cycle of trauma is inevitable and inescapable. 2. The silence after this reveal could symbolize how even Dexter (who usually has inner monologues), is left speechless, his control over his world is gone. 3. The juxtaposition between Rita's lifelessness and the baby's cries emphasizes Dexter's failure to keep his family safe. This forces Dexter to reevaluate his decision of his double life.

This visual analysis helped me recognize that even in everyday shows, literature continues to linger beneath the surface in subtle ways, shaping themes, storytelling techniques, and character development in ways that often go unnoticed but still influence how audiences interpret and connect with what they are watching.

Discussion Post #2:Sigh Gone

Yehia Abouelnasr (Summarizer) In the opening Chapters of Sigh Gone, Phuc Tran reminisces his early childhood as a Vietnamese refugee growing up in Carlisle Pennsylvania. His family struggles to adapt to a new life in a new country while maintaining their Vietnamese culture. Phuc faces the struggles of poverty, language barriers, and cultural discrepancies, which make him feel lost between 2 worlds. At home, his family's traditional values shape his life (mostly). His father is strict and physically disciplines him when he misbehaves, and his mother expects him to follow the cultural rules and help with household responsibilities. Phuc also experiences shame and guilt, like when he steals trading cards to fit in with his peers, demonstrating how his environment forces him to navigate survival, morality, and cultural expectations concurrently. At school, Phuc struggles to fit in and faces racism, bullying and teasing from his classmates because of his origin. Learning English was difficult, and he feels isolated and different from the other children. Despite all these challenges, he has small wins that provide him small boosts of confidence and belonging, like winning his thanksgiving essay contest. These experiences show the beginning to Phuc's journey to finding himself and simultaneously navigating his families expectations. The early chapters illustrate the families broad struggles that many immigrants face. His parents face financial hardship, work long hours, and trying to grapple between English and Vietnamese. Which adds additional tension to the househould. The family tries to preserve their Vietnamese traditions but the pressure to take in American culture creates more stress and misunderstandings. Through these early years, Phuc builds detachment and awareness of his dual identity, which often makes him feel too Vietnamese at school and too American at home. The narrative focuses on his day to day experiences, including his moments of fear, embarassment, and his small victories, which all together paints a picture of a refugee family. All in all, the early chapters set up the major events and themes Phuc's early life, showing his family, culture and poverty, and societal pressure shaping his childhood.

Reflection: Reader, Writer, Scholar

For most of my academic life, I did not consider myself a strong reader or writer. I identified mainly as a STEM student, someone who felt more comfortable in subjects like math and computer science where the expectations were direct, exact, and absolute. English felt unpredictable and subjective, so I approached it as a hurdle rather than something I could engage or benefit from. Over the course of this class, that mindset has been greatly changed. While I still see myself as a STEM student, I began to understand reading and writing as skills that support how I think, communicate and learn rather than hurdles I could avoid. This reflection traces how my background, habits and experiences in this course reshaped my identity as a read, writer and scholar.

My background as an immigrant also played a huge part in how I originally viewed English. As the oldest child in my family, I did not have parents who could help me navigate English academically, so I had to do it on my own. Because of this, I naturally leaned towards subjects where language mattered less and logic mattered. English never felt like a safe subject for me because of this, and approaching it always felt intimidating. And this was further worsened by the fact that English doesn’t really have solid instructions like most stem classes do; English expectations tend to be less concrete, which as a result had me kind of skimming everything.

At the start of the semester, these hesitations I had were reflected in my reading habits. Not knowing what to do, I applied the same strategies from my STEM subjects in English. Whenever we started a reading, whether it was a book or an article, I focused on finding key points, memorizing details I might be quizzed on, and then moving on. And unfortunately, it worked for a while. I was able to get through assignments, answer questions about the texts, and keep up with the workload I was given without really feeling challenged. However, I slowly started to notice that I was missing the purpose of the texts. I understood what happened in the text, but not why it mattered. That changed this semester. As the readings became longer and more complex, this strategy stopped being enough. Through discussion posts and close-reading assignments, I realized that English texts are not meant+ to be rushed or reduced to simple bullet points. They require slowing down and paying attention to how ideas are developed, what perspectives are being presented, and what the author is trying to communicate beneath the surface. Once I began reading with this mindset, I found myself more engaged and less frustrated, and I started to see reading as an enjoyable thing rather than a task to finish as quickly as possible.

Writing was an even bigger challenge for me early on. When I was young, before I moved to the U.S, I mainly learned English through reading, and not writing, so when I migrated to the U.S and found out that writing is equal to reading I was dumbfounded, as it was the main way to assess your english, my writing was sluggish and mediocre, which resulted in poor grades and holding a negative view against writing, however during this semester, this view has radically changed, I no longer view writing as a weakness, but as an extensive process. I now view it as something you slowly build and add ideas onto, speak your voice on it and tailoring it to your liking. It does not need to be perfect, it just needs effort. Through revisions, I could identify weak points, refine ideas, and improve clarity the same way I would refactor a program. Seeing writin as a process made it feel more familiar and less intimidating.

Reflecting also played a vital role in my growth throughout this semester. Taking time to reflect on my own work has pushed me to think more carefully about how I approach reading and writing. I began to realize that my logical way of thinking was not a disadvantage for my English skills, but it was a gift that was opened incorrectly. Instead of using it to understand ideas and structure correctly, I was using it to rush through text and simplify my writing. Once I realized this, I stopped trying to write like someone else and focused on using my strengths to communicate my ideas clearly and effectively.

By the end of the semester, my understanding of what it means to be a scholar exactly has greatly expanded. I no longer see academic work as something reserved for those who are born with the language. Instead I see it as a process that values effort, engagement, and thinking. Participating in discussions, responding to readings and revising essays has helped me realize that learning is almost never about perfection but about the process and growth over time. Even when you are unsure about your ideas, I’ve learned that engagement is much more proritized.

Looking back, I didn’t suddenly become passionate about English, but I did become more capable and confident in the language. I’ve learned to approach reading with patience, writing with intention and academic work with a positive mindset. These skills will extend beyond this class and will be very useful in my future endeavors, especially in computer science, where communication and explanation are vital. Being able to articulate my ideas effectively and clearly is more important than my technical knowledge.

All in all, this course has helped me to redefine my identity as a reader, writer and scholar. I would still consider myself a STEM student first but I no longer view English as the subject I struggled with or feel disconnected with. Instead I see it as another skill set I can develop with a lot of practice and effort. That shift in perspective is the most important takeaway I’ve learned from this semester and one that I will carry on with me moving forward.